Maryam Shehu

The Year In Review

2022 has been that year for me. It’s been filled with lots of setbacks and accomplishments. The year started with me not being in a good place mentally and emotionally. I had a lot of dreams that I had hoped to achieve in the previous year that I was only able to achieve little to nothing and that made me less hopeful and optimistic about wanting to achieve anything this year. Having a difficult previous year blurred my vision and almost made me give up on all the dreams that I ever had.

Starting the new year did not make me feel better because it felt like a continuation of the previous year, my vision remained blurred and it felt like the world was against me. Everything I tried to do failed which made my anxiety hit the highest level. Thankfully, I had few people who were by my side. They gave me the best support that I needed at that time which was emotional support. Gradually my anxiety level decreased and I started to regain my balance and my vision became less blurry. I started to try again but this time I had little to no expectations, I just kept pushing.

After some time, an opportunity came, I went for an interview. The process of getting to the venue wasn’t an easy one as I got informed about the interview in a short time. Thankfully, I got to the interview on time and it went well even though it was nerve wracking. It took some time to get a feedback from from them. The waiting period wasn’t easy, my anxiety level had risen but I still had my support system so I managed to get through it. In the end I got the job. I was happy, I felt relieved. I started to see reasons to be hopeful and optimistic about life and life achievements.

My biggest achievement so far would be self discovery, self growth and personal development. Being faced with life challenges forced me to push myself harder than I used to and made me accept the realities of life. I was humbled. I realized that I can not always be in control of everything and things will not always go the way I want and the way I plan for it to go and that is totally fine. It was not easy trying to accept it all but looking back at the journey, I can only be thankful for the experience and would not have it any other way.

I have not been consistent with my plans for the year and for the first time ever I am not sad about it. The long break that I took was worth it. I was able to clear my head, calm my nerves and reorganize my plans and now I feel like I am ready to start working towards achieving my dreams. I plan to not rush the process and go easy on myself. Even if I don’t get to achieve a lot by the end of the year, I will not beat myself up. I would rather be thankful for whatever it is that I get to achieve.

The biggest lesson I learned from the previous year is that the last month of the year is not the deadline for achieving your dreams. You can achieve your dreams anytime. If you were not able to achieve your dreams the previous year, you have the rest of your life to achieve that and more. So breathe and enjoy the process. There is always something to be thankful for and there is always a reason to celebrate even if it is just to celebrate the gift of life.

Love

Maryam

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20 responses to “The Year In Review”

  1. Oooh wow
    I really learnt a whole lot from this
    Most times I also feel like I don’t know what I’m doing because everything feels wrong
    I try my best to push things but at the end it feels like I’m not doing it right, but reading this made me realize a whole lot and I’ll just try as much as possible to be patient and hopeful
    and I’ll will always thank God for everything
    One thing we should know is everything happens for a reason
    Delay is not denial and we should always know that every disappointment is a blessing
    I pray Almighty Allah ease our affairs and Make things easier for us
    May all our dreams come through

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    • Ameen. Thank you so much for reading. I am so happy you learned a lot. Like you rightly said, delay is not denial and everything happens for a reason. We should always believe that God has our best interest at heart and just because things don’t go the way we want does not mean that something good will not happen. We should trust the process and more importantly we should trust God. In the end, everything will turn out fine. Also, when you feel tired, you should take a breather. We will all be fine 😊❤️

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  2. It’s been an eventful eight months for you, sometimes you probably felt it was eventless but I’m sure you’re buzzing and balanced where you’re at right now. Your article is beautiful and I had a good read with it , you’ve picked up so many life changing lessons that’ll guide you in the next years to come . I learnt so much from reading this article as well but ultimately, delay is never denial . Understanding there’s a time set for different Individuals and just settling into it in a relaxed manner is really how to handle life challenges and anxieties .I’ll stop now before I start writing another article under yours hahaha , thank you !
    🙂

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  5. I hear you on that anxiety thing; I know it well! But when you said, “the last month of the year is not the deadline for achieving your dreams. You can achieve your dreams anytime”, that was for me very wise. I have often put some artificial deadline on things. Why? I didn’t really need to!

    By the way, I went to your Home page but didn’t see any links to your writings from it. Maybe I just did it wrong though.

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  6. I am so happy Mary about what you have achieved and yes in the end there is light at the end of the tunnel, as I was reading this story about you and how 2022 has been for you, it is inspiring and it uplifts others who are probably going through the same thing. Getting a job is a big achievement I too would be happy beyond borders. All the best for you and may you always feel happy and relived😁😊😊♥♥🙏

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